Death in Love

Love is The funeral pyre Where I have laid my living body. All the false notions of myself That once caused fear, pain, Have turned to ash As I neared God. What has risen From the tangled web of thought and sinew Now shines with jubilation Through the eyes of angels And screams from the guts of Infinite existence Itself. Love is the funeral pyre Where the heart must lay Its body." -Hafiz A new revelation to self is a recurring theme of funeral pyres. As I fall deep into it I am trying to understand that there is Death in Love. Clarissa Pinkola Estes (Jungian psychologist) writes about this in Women Who Run with the Wolves (Ch Skeleton Woman) and so does Hafiz, the Sufi poet.

Love has no Reason. 

Therefore the question of "Why you love someone/something" is negated. 

[In my opinion, a late realization for Self xD]

Weaver

Entangling myself in your intricately woven tapestries.
I dance, dancing the thousand dances of your woeful love
Patiently waiting for the yarn to make me feel its softness and lightness of being.
The paroxysms of your rage making me giddy
I translate the dizziness as I swirl the strokes of my brush to create daubs you'll never forget.
With it I whirl, not waiting to be held by you or anyone
Not wanting to be untangled or untied.
Come join me
Weave me

Love with Gratitude

Dear 2013,

Thank You ! Gifting myself Love, and attempting to suspend doubts and fears I created for myself ...

गांजा अफ़ीम और पोस्त भांग, गांजा शराबें पीवता

एक प्रेम रस चाखा नहीं , अमली हुआ तो क्या हुआ ? 

You take ganja  opium bhang,

You drown yourself in spirits!

You never tasted the nectar of love,

what kind of a drunk are you?

- Kabir (Source: Kabir in Pakistan) 

Ending the year and sharing the much needed 'words of wisdom' given to me....

“There is a vitality, a life force, an energy, a quickening that is translated through you into action, and because there is only one of you in all of time, this expression is unique. And if you block it, it will never exist through any other medium and it will be lost. The world will not have it. It is not your business to determine how good it is nor how valuable nor how it compares with other expressions. It is your business to keep it yours clearly and directly, to keep the channel open. You do not even have to believe in yourself or your work. You have to keep yourself open and aware to the urges that motivate you. Keep the channel open. ... No artist is pleased. [There is] no satisfaction whatever at any time. There is only a queer divine dissatisfaction, a blessed unrest that keeps us marching and makes us more alive than the others” ― Martha Graham

Love and Light and Thanks to all you wonderful people out there! Seasons Greetings... =)

Let me sing you a Waltz! :P

                                                                    stuck in head :P

Cosmic Dance

Only dance, and your illusions will blow in the wind
Dance, and make joyous the love around you
Dance, and your veils which hide the Light
Shall swirl in a heap at your feet…

-The Dancing Cry Of The Soul, ~Rumi

Jaya jaya shiva shambhu

COSMOS

Chaos to order →order to self→ self to meditation → meditation to others →others to back to self.

No wonder i love circles! I have been shaking a leg in this cosmic dance especially in the last month of 2012. Words can’t describe... but i will still try to give you a glimpse of the last few moments of 2012. I’m a strong believer in universe’s conspiracy. When you want something, it happens. It happens when you have the intent of making it happen. Oops got, philosophical there. Nevertheless, i just wanted to share my travel to Rishikesh, Tehri and New Tehri. It’s amazing how travelling, mountains, river and the chill in the air make me soo happy, at peace with myself, and this time, engaging me to make me better connected with the microcosm, my relationship with the microcosm! Damn, i love India, especially it's Geography... As rightly put by Lord Byron,There is pleasure in the pathless woods,there is a rapture on the lonely shore, There is society where none intrudes. By deep see and music in its roar,i love not the man less...but nature more....!
 

Lived in an ashram along the Ganges...

The beautiful aarti, and vedic chants at the Paramarth Ashram

 Tehri and new tehri...

The deeper you go,the higher you fly,

                                                                                            The higher you fly the deeper you go

..And I dance the thousand dances of love, all returning to you....

I love new years..., newness lies in the heart, it lies in you as to how you would want to make each day as different. 2013 shall be the year of more love... Happy 2013!

Moments...

Time's a thief,
a stench of truth.
And moments are the dust in your eyes.
Sometimes, racing past you
Sometimes carrying you with itself.
Can you catch this dust?

Dust, that sometimes decorates your porcelain skin
as glitter around your eyes?
Dust, that at other times hypnotizes you
causing an episodic fugue?
Can you catch that dust?

Will you promise to catch this dust for me
and save in a jar called Nothing?
Will you promise love, not to label this star-dust?
and let it be OURS, forever...

1.12.12, 12:20 am.

Dakini- Sky Dancer!

uff, I can't stop smiling today! Two interesting things that i feel like blogging about...

Firstly, another favourite subject of mine that I'm studying these days is Child Development/ Psychology. So we were doing Piaget and his 4 stages of cognitive development following this, The further developments in this area. Our teacher was discussing the additional hierarchical levels in the Formal operations stage as suggested by the neo-Piagetian scholars.
Errr...Got my leg pulled by my professor on making a comment on 'Problem Finder'.
"So the Problem Finder has spoken".  :P
Ah, well yes.. i am quite an inquisitive child... and i like to question a lot. Big question marks buzzing around me all the time! And i also believe that Questioning/being curious is an extremely important part of growth...not only for a child but adults as well! So keep questioning! *blushes* ;)

For academic Reference:

Another thing that was constantly running in my mind today was that just yesterday a friend asked me random question while chatting
"Are you a sapiosexual?"
Hell I didn't even know what it meant but basically means a person who has a strong attraction to someone's intelligence. I ended up laughing! I didn't even know there's a term for this! Ha Ha.
I am inquisitive myself, i like inquisitive people too! i also dig intellectual stimulation...but then isn't intelligence just ONE aspect of personality?! After being oriented towards psychology, intelligence and wisdom itself seem so relative to me! I believe a human being can offer much more than JUST one trait or ability in whatever relationship s/he is in. You just need to keep your eyes and heart open! REMEMBER, the whole is more than the parts! ;)
As for attraction.. i think I'm really attracted to people who truly understand or for that matter just acknowledge the feeling of Unconditional Love! =)

I'm a happy kid these days... plus it is raining and i've learnt to let go!

Dakini 1 . A4. water colour on paper.

Dakini 2. A4. water color on paper

Dakini 3. A4.pencils and dry pastel on paper

Be well, and be HAPPY!

Flute Series

(watercolor on paper)

FIRE

WATER

AIR

ETHER

EARTH

PS: In memory of my lost 'charm', lost on a 'not-so-unlucky' day! =)
there ain't no LUCK without LOVE and vice-versa. . .