Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Paradoxical You

On Drawing Lines



Life has turned out to be quite ironic these days. On one hand, one friend says that i am finally doing things i escape from, the other says it's a 'way forward' and still another says that it is the 'is-moment', the reality. And it doesn't stop there, my artist teacher (who saw my art for the first time) says that "There are so many things you want to say,but it shows you are lost, passionately in the process of finding that perfect language. [to escape eh.. (me in my mind) ;) ]

 And so it starts with drawing lines! Ironic. Ironic! Yes, according to her(and as a matter of fact) I really suck at drawing lines,and when i do, they're ultra rigid! Aghh...extremities! hmmm...true that. My art exudes truth and honesty that I dig in my relationships. There are NO boundaries,conditions, rules and regulations or obligations when you love someone. You just love. You don't reason love! It's like 'a small regret,you won't forget!'
Love is complicated (any kind). But if one dares/dreams to love/be loved then why escape/run away from challenging the complications? whatever happens to human feelings, the hurt in love, the truth and all that follows? Why is it a human tendency to elude from the divine truth? Truth that sometimes stares at you as grays in life... Well the truth is, however much you try and draw 'lines', keep safe your 'private space' (even question the phenomenon of private space) those lines will ultimately fade away... or in my teacher's words "You have to learn to give a gradation!" It all fades into the white... The ultimate truth is love! you can hide it, not believe it,run away from it but you cannot erase it!.
The truth is nobody wants their lives to be simple.. "the real truth is nobody wants realitypeople don't want their lives fixed. nobody wants their problems solved. their dramas. their distractions. their stories resolved. their messed cleaned up. because what would they have left? just the big scary unknown."
This is the reason we have an array of human feelings and emotions. This is the reason there are emotions named as fear,anticipation,ecstasy, jealousy, envy, rage,insecurity,  frustration, compassion, sacrifice, admiration, adoration, etc. challenging,contradicting and complimenting you to reach that ultimate reality!

Robert Plutchik- Wheel of emotions.
PS: I'm lucky to have all my relations intense and deep...bathed in truth and oozing love-the ultimate truth! The sooner you realize it, the better! =P

"Kehte hain agar kisi cheez ko dil se chaho.. to poori kayinaat use tumhe milaane ki koshish main lag jaati hai.."
"When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it"

Fearless.

15.7.11                                                                      old kajal(s), charcoal, photoshop

What Silence Said

Susheela Raman


Does the unknown bird enter and leave the cage ?

Paris café.
Our last rendez-vous
Rain swept, backwardscripted windows
Our shrunken heads reading signs and lips
One last dance, broken steps
Before your eclipse...

Was there thunder in your ears?
Mine were full of sand, not hearing
What your silence said
And if I turn around, your mouth open, no sound.
your eyes screaming, retreating into blackness...

A day too late, your news found me at home.
Mind bubbling up,
Angry water refusing a stone,
And then revenge, I felt life surge in my veins
A hunger you would never taste again...

Did you lose your faith in love?
Did you lose faith in human feeling?
Silence...
Did you lose your trust in truth?
Did your heart find no way to healing
Like I lost you?

You left your lovers close behind,
All twisted up in time, you crossed the line.
It's all we have this thin twine, then nothing...
Just the emptiness you carved,
Your spine a lonely blade,
In space...
To the end a dancer...
Beautiful face begins to fade,
Thank you for being my friend...
Beautiful face begins to fade...

Sunday, June 5, 2011

When your dreams have ended...

An all time favourite song that sometimes echoes in my ears and gives me goosepimples! =)

Remember Me composed by James Horner
(performed by Josh Groban and Tanja Tzarovsk)


Remember, I will still be here
As long as you hold me, in your memory

Remember, when your dreams have ended
Time can be transcended
Just remember me

I am the one star that keeps burning, so brightly,
It is the last light, to fade into the rising sun

I'm with you
Whenever you tell, my story
For I am all I've done

Remember, I will still be here
As long as you hold me, in your memory
Remember me

I am the one voice in the cold wind, that whispers
And if you listen, you'll hear me call across the sky

As long as I still can reach out, and touch you
Then I will never die

Remember, I'll never leave you
If you will only
Remember me

Remember me...

Remember, I will still be here
As long as you hold me
In your memory

Remember, when your dreams have ended
Time can be transcended
I live forever
Remember me

Remember me
Remember... me...


PS: a strong urge to explore the character of  Achilles... =)

Thursday, June 2, 2011

Red Rose

Mixed Media (bark,dried red rose,dried leaves, oil on paper)


PS: Gifted to mom dad as an anniversary gift (2010) =)

Behold the dream, the dream is gone!

Some old doodles. =)

black hand made print (black pen)

Come on baby blue
Shake up your tired eyes
The world is waiting for you
May all your dreaming fill the empty sky. . .
       ~Oasis song(let there be love)


Dry pastels




charcoal pencils
When i kept waiting.. ( a part of Intzaar i guess?)

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Mad Art Attack

'They all think that painting means ultimately you have to end up in an exhibition very fast. What about the artist living the painting he makes; how to make it way of living is important; where is the passion for painting? it has to be instilled in the art school but unfortunately they teach how to make the masterpiece and not how to arrive at it.'

Well.. those are the lines of Prabhakar Kolte that i quote form the Indian Contemporary Art Journal that struck me and (more so) provoked me to blog along with the movie Mona Lisa Smile i just watched.

Barring Kolte's comment on the 'art schools' and making 'masterpieces' (i shall take up that issue some other time) i'd like to dedicate this article on the 'passion' for art.

 'What is art, what makes it good or bad? who decides?'

Is recognition the sole purpose for doing art for an artist?
I am not blogging today, expressing the sentiments of any artists' community but as an individual.
For me, it is not. when i do any piece of art i do not consider whether my audience will appreciate or criticize it. i just do it because i want to do it. they might or might not mean anything at all for the audience, but sometimes they do, for an artist. Not as an antique property that i would wanna obsess over, but probably just preserve it! I paint because i'm passionate about art. i'm passionate about expressing myself through that medium if i choose to. what i'm trying to communicate is that the INTENTION of doing a piece of art(for me) is not fame or money. it is just another medium of expression, irrespective of whether they are ideas or emotions. All i'd like to request the 'audience community' is to appreciate and respect that EXPRESSION irrespective of whether they appreciate that piece of art or not. And as for the artist(me), fame, recognition and money shall come along if it is meant to! (good for me i guess?!) at least it's not the priority!
i do art because it flows through me, and well, anyone or anything that obstructs that flow frustrates me.


I’m not preaching or proposing a progressive revolution. I just want my Freedom. No compromises.

‘not all wanderers are aimless.’

PS: Mona Lisa Smile is a decent watch . =)

Sunday, May 29, 2011

Untitled




16"X 20"Acrylic on canvas
inspiration: staring too close at the flame of a lighter

'When my synapses pause in my quest for applause
When my ego lets go of my end of the bone
To focus instead on the love that is precious to me
Then I shall be free
I shall be free..

I'll feel the heat of a flickering flame'
The inside of a flame...
The Blue flame...
The Flame.



Not that i had the lyrics in mind when i painted this one.. but i do..when i'm posting to share it.

Anyway , need suggestions for a suitable Title.. pls help! =)