Cul de sac - Doodles

cul de sac 1. used Kajals and wax crayons.A3

cul de sac (another perspective) 2. Used kajals and wax crayons. A3

More Cognitive, Less Affective.

So i'm back! in the sense, i'm back with the 'kind' of art i usually do/started with.Currently being somewhat trained in skills and techniques of art i had almost stopped doing my crazy 'free association' art , whether it be thoughts, ideas or emotions. Nevertheless, combining the skills required in art (such as shading, perspective,observation, proportion,etc)CONSCIOUSLY is gonna take some time to seep into me. Somehow when i do art/(more so-used to) i never used to think about HOW it's gonna come out to be. I just did it and let my thoughts give me direction.
This is another one of those pieces...i did recently, and yes, it is more cathartic. I call this 'Twisted Nerve'- and as described in the title, it is more cognitive, and less affective. Somehow these days i've stopped FEELING, for better or worse, just a phase i guess! =)

Twisted Nerve. A3. Natural charcoal and dry pastel on paper.

 The title is of course inspired by the Kill Bill soundtrack. 

Attention Deficit

Ink,Metallic gold and acrylic on paper. (A4)

Whisper...

A slight
    tender
    gentle                     WHISPER...
    soft

ABA series. 1).Whisper. 2011. 15 X 22 inches [charcoal,coffee & pencil colours on paper].  Collection: Anwesha Bose

Coz I'm Sticking To You!

So in my study phase of art, some time back i was asked by my teacher to do a 'Copy-work', wherein she wanted to see my skills at how well I copy a piece of art .Even though that never really happened, owing to my wandering mind when it comes to art, and abstraction that I often indulge in (AND lack of patience when it comes to IMITATION!)

Nevertheless, I selected Anupam Sud's 'My Feminine Side' for reference, and compiled it into my own composition which i title 'Hair/ Coz I'm Sticking To You'. This work of mine is autobiographical and contextual at the same time. I may say, that it 'reflects' a lot things for me ranging from the Literal meaning of Hair,to metaphorically- questioning Attachments, Existence, Identity and Sexuality.

 Do note, that the the two eyes of the woman are distinct. (they were intended that way!)

Looking forward for your Feedback!

Reference: Anupam Sud's- My Feminine Side

Hair/ Coz I'm Sticking To You  .2011. [A3] Pencils and water based pencils on paper.

Color Mixer

For the art aficionado that i am, this past week has been truly amazing for me;full of art events, people and activities. From an intriguing discourse on Public art and installations by Ma'am Shukla Sawant as part of my art appreciation course, attending a solo exhibition by my art 'teacher' Ma'am Kanchan Chander, a solo exhibition of performance artist Ms Manmeet Devgun, a theatrical performance of my directorial venture 'A World of Scarecrows' a mental health awareness stage play at one of the Hospital's medical conference...to watching Ingmar Bergman's Persona! All in all,  a visual treat!

sigh

As i look back and introspect and retrospect today, i feel a sense of satisfaction, entering the art world and yet maintaining my headbent decision of studying psychology, and integrating the two worlds where ever possible. Well, i realized that the two are inseparable. There is art in psychology and psychology in art! It is a kind of symbiotic relationship!

As much as i'd wanna share more and more, time is running out! So its now the time for The Rabbit to run!

Burnt in the ashes of time,

tasting the soot of happiness.

Rubbing against forehead as mark of resolution

The Reign of dilettante shall not be a delusion!

The 'i-ye imagination' shall burn with a fire of passion

in thousands of hearts, with thousands of ambitions...

untitled. poster colours on paper. 2011 22''x15''

untitled coloured ink on paper. 2011 22''x15''

untitled  coloured ink on paper. 2011 22''x15''

PS:
To read more:
> Kanchan Chander solo

>  manmeet devgun

>and i recommend all those who like to carefully study theatre,film,psychology,silence,truth,love or are simply the explorers of self to watch the film Persona by Swedish director Ingmar Bergman! (i shall soon write more about it)

Stay Happy!

In search of a song...

If you're a crazy music lover. If passion drives you to do anything and everything in life. If rythm and sound run in each and every atom of your body. if you can make music with anything that appeals your eyes and ears; AND 'where the mind is without fear', then venture out in search of 'your' song! =)


Since i discovered that i love fusion, i quite like the music series 'The Dewarists'. Check them out, every Sunday, 8 pm, Star World.
Sharing the first episode, 'Minds Without Fear'.

Also sharing one of my really old sketches titled 'Music', which i now believe needs to evolve! ;)

Music (2009) charcoal and pencils on paper

[See it from all sides..., it 'changes'!]

Burnt Gold...

Adding my drop of Gold to your elixir... or taking some of yours to add to mine...

coffee,fevicol,charcoal and gold paint on paper.

 PS: inspired by one of my centre festival titled 'Burnt Gold'.

Yellow!

Yellow [5.10.11] water based pencil colours on paper

 Yellow by Coldplay

Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And everything you do,
Yeah they were all yellow,

I came along
I wrote a song for you
And all the things you do
And it was called yellow

So then I took my turn
Oh all the things I've done
And it was all yellow

Your skin
Oh yeah your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
D'you know you know I love you so
You know I love you so

I swam across
I jumped across for you
Oh all the things you do
Cause you were all yellow

I drew a line
I drew a line for you
Oh what a thing to do
And it was all yellow

Your skin
Oh yeah your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
D'you know for you i bleed myself dry
For you i bleed myself dry

Its true
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine
look at the stars
look how they shine for you
and all the things that you do...

इंतज़ार...

One of my abstract works which has been subjected to much speculation to the few who have seen it. i wonder why...
Open to your interpretations.

Well, the wait continues... =)

Intzaar [2010] (ink,pencils and charcoal on paper)

the beginning of intzaar

[apologies for the low quality photographs]

it's been on my mind so felt like sharing it: DJ Cheb i Sabbah song- kese kese

Blind Sculptor aka Waking Dream III

Into figurative these days and loving it...
Human body is one of the most amazing creations...so much to explore...
some of my first figures... ~desiring perfection.

written on 1.3.11

 
PS:Expressing gratitude to 'Aks'... who has currently been an 'inspiration' to love and embrace myself which at some point of time in my life seemed unattainable. My only hope of unconditional love in this delusional world.
[a song dedicated to aks- saathi-midival punditz and ustad sultan khan ]

The Great Masturbator-Dalí

The Great Masturbator,1929, oil on canvas, Salvador Dalí

Certainly  this composition allows us vivid insight into Dalí's sexual fantasies, which were often violent, and his fear of the dangers of carnal love, which is symbolized mainly by the grasshopper. In contrast, the lion's head inscribed in the masturbator's face-at the point where it merges into the female body- with its lolling tongue and wildly rolling eyes stands for the impossibility of controlling erotic lust. Dalí's fear of sexually transmitted diseases is manifest in the fellatio that does not take place between the naked woman and the male torso in front of her face, whose penis appears to be strangely "abstract". Dalí took great care to point out that the contours of the face with its elongated nose were inspired rock formations at Cap de Creus. This painting came into being while the artist was under the influence of his first passionate encounter with Gala, and it mirrors Dalí's yearning for and at the same time deep-seated fear of a union with this fascinating woman. After all, at that point in time Dalí professed to have only masturbated and never performed coitus.

All of that is evident in The Great Masturbator. But the painting itself, as smooth and fine as alabaster, is much more than a subjective avowal-just as for Dalí sexuality always meant more than purely individual,psychological libido. To him, eroticism, beyond all conventional morality and also beyond physical satisfaction, was a protective wall against the certainty of death, making it a life principle par excellence. Like other means for attaining "enlightenment of the soul", sexual passion served as a hallucinogenic medium, with the help of which transcendent experiences could flow into the painting. It is for good reason that in Dalí's later thinking eroticism became the "royal path to the soul of God" because as he put it, it is inherent in all molecular structures.

The translation of erotic sexual fantasies into pictorial compositions and suggestive visualizations- more often than not with obsessive zeal- therefore become a highly effective method of laying a foundation for "shared dreaming". What could be better suited to creating  common ground between the artist and the observer than their common existential experience of eros!

Source: Salvador Dalí, Norbert Wolf

Fearless.

15.7.11                                                                      old kajal(s), charcoal, photoshop

What Silence Said

Susheela Raman

Does the unknown bird enter and leave the cage ?

Paris café.
Our last rendez-vous
Rain swept, backwardscripted windows
Our shrunken heads reading signs and lips
One last dance, broken steps
Before your eclipse...

Was there thunder in your ears?
Mine were full of sand, not hearing
What your silence said
And if I turn around, your mouth open, no sound.
your eyes screaming, retreating into blackness...

A day too late, your news found me at home.
Mind bubbling up,
Angry water refusing a stone,
And then revenge, I felt life surge in my veins
A hunger you would never taste again...

Did you lose your faith in love?
Did you lose faith in human feeling?
Silence...
Did you lose your trust in truth?
Did your heart find no way to healing
Like I lost you?

You left your lovers close behind,
All twisted up in time, you crossed the line.
It's all we have this thin twine, then nothing...
Just the emptiness you carved,
Your spine a lonely blade,
In space...
To the end a dancer...
Beautiful face begins to fade,
Thank you for being my friend...
Beautiful face begins to fade...

Red Rose

Mixed Media (bark,dried red rose,dried leaves, oil on paper)

PS: Gifted to mom dad as an anniversary gift (2010) =)

Behold the dream, the dream is gone!

Some old doodles. =)

black hand made print (black pen)

Come on baby blue
Shake up your tired eyes
The world is waiting for you
May all your dreaming fill the empty sky. . .

       ~Oasis song(let there be love)

Dry pastels

charcoal pencils
When i kept waiting.. ( a part of Intzaar i guess?)

Mad Art Attack

'They all think that painting means ultimately you have to end up in an exhibition very fast. What about the artist living the painting he makes; how to make it way of living is important; where is the passion for painting? it has to be instilled in the art school but unfortunately they teach how to make the masterpiece and not how to arrive at it.'

Well.. those are the lines of Prabhakar Kolte that i quote form the Indian Contemporary Art Journal that struck me and (more so) provoked me to blog along with the movie Mona Lisa Smile i just watched.

Barring Kolte's comment on the 'art schools' and making 'masterpieces' (i shall take up that issue some other time) i'd like to dedicate this article on the 'passion' for art.

 'What is art, what makes it good or bad? who decides?'

Is recognition the sole purpose for doing art for an artist?
I am not blogging today, expressing the sentiments of any artists' community but as an individual.
For me, it is not. when i do any piece of art i do not consider whether my audience will appreciate or criticize it. i just do it because i want to do it. they might or might not mean anything at all for the audience, but sometimes they do, for an artist. Not as an antique property that i would wanna obsess over, but probably just preserve it! I paint because i'm passionate about art. i'm passionate about expressing myself through that medium if i choose to. what i'm trying to communicate is that the INTENTION of doing a piece of art(for me) is not fame or money. it is just another medium of expression, irrespective of whether they are ideas or emotions. All i'd like to request the 'audience community' is to appreciate and respect that EXPRESSION irrespective of whether they appreciate that piece of art or not. And as for the artist(me), fame, recognition and money shall come along if it is meant to! (good for me i guess?!) at least it's not the priority!
i do art because it flows through me, and well, anyone or anything that obstructs that flow frustrates me.

I’m not preaching or proposing a progressive revolution. I just want my Freedom. No compromises.

‘not all wanderers are aimless.’

PS: Mona Lisa Smile is a decent watch . =)

Untitled

16"X 20"Acrylic on canvas
inspiration: staring too close at the flame of a lighter

'When my synapses pause in my quest for applause
When my ego lets go of my end of the bone
To focus instead on the love that is precious to me
Then I shall be free
I shall be free..

I'll feel the heat of a flickering flame'
The inside of a flame...
The Blue flame...
The Flame.



Not that i had the lyrics in mind when i painted this one.. but i do..when i'm posting to share it.

Anyway , need suggestions for a suitable Title.. pls help! =) 

Flute Series

(watercolor on paper)

FIRE

WATER

AIR

ETHER

EARTH

PS: In memory of my lost 'charm', lost on a 'not-so-unlucky' day! =)
there ain't no LUCK without LOVE and vice-versa. . .